“A friend is one who walks in when others walk out”
“Don’t walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don’t walk behind me, I may not lead.
Walk beside me and be my friend.”
– Albert Camus (also attributed to Maimonidies)
This is a year that I think i will make new friends or solidify old friendships. I feel that too many people don’t truly understand me, and it has brought a sadness into my heart. I’m too old and too tired to feel guilty for things I should not. I aslo can not play the passive aggressive game, that is not me. I need to try harder to make the friendships I want last. New friends are always welcome, yet I lack action. Things need to change, in my heart and in my life. The only way they will change is if I decide to change them. It’s going to be a hard road, but I don’t want to feel lonely and misunderstood.
I married the person who understands me most. There must be others out there like that, but he often feels misunderstood as well.
Change has been going on for years, yet I feel sometimes people still see me as someone I was and not someone I am. There will be more change to come. I will make it so. I will make myself happy. I can no longer feel this way, and I’m tired of being called crazy for expressing my feelings , no matter how silly.
Change is in the air and I am hopeful.